Through the Looking Glass

ASK ME ANYTHING - IF YOU REALLY CAN…

We all have thing slightly off putting, perhaps unsettling or concerning that consumes our minds from time to time… About what is right or wrong… about who we are and what we should be… or about the unique feelings or experiences we have had.

So talk to me and off load these secret issues that seem to great for the world- and I will share mine.

TO MY BEAUTIFUL KATIE…

Life offers beauty to those who transcend brilliance… you my dear are sure to be the deliverer of great joy to those around you… you are destined to a life of constant giving - and certain admiration.

As long as you are in my life - I can assure you that there will always be someone who admires your ability to inspire others, to invest your absolute all into life and to being a radient star awaiting your moment of implosion. Like elements under so many stresses you will always emerge as a brilliant diamond - calcified and admired by the strenght of your determination and the various precious elements of your amazing personality.

Thank you my dear for your temperence, tranquility and enthusiasm … just remember to let yourself explode every now and then to allow others to feel your brilliance as I know it can be felt.

Did a fox eat the egg?

I often wonder -where the borders blur between the right thing and wrong thing to do is. I think - should I wait for that ” i miss you text ” out of vanity - or is it my vanity that omits such interactions?

I often wonder - how much space is too much between me and my boyfriend? When he wants to be “with the boys” and I want him to hold my hand … how much of my own discomfort should I tolerate for my love?

I often wonder  - How much I should try to make the people in my life happy… I wonder why is it that I am always the one chasing up meetings, get togethers, times to chat etc? why do i seem more interested than everyone else in my family towards keeping in touch??

I guess the bounderies of relationships are defined by perception - do i think that my boyfriend cares? well no … not when he ditches me on my night off. But then I use some logic to think “Well he has helped me through big dramas this week… almost ever night he has been with me or listened… almost ever day he has tried to be there to make me happy.”

I often wonder why it is so hard to find the right balance in relationships. To invest enough without exhausting myself.

Maybe “self sacrifice” isnt exhausting onself - but waiting for it to come to me. Pacience may bear with it the fruits of true family, love and comfort.

SOOOO HAS ANYONE GOT ANY IDEAS???

someone to fuck

Well … can anyone tell me if there is something wrong with me loving my boyfriend will all of my heart and body - but still wanting a little lady love to fulfill my sexual appetite? Perhaps if women with similar desires where more overt we (my boyfreind, the supposed “she” I am keen to seduce, and myself) would enjoy an open relationship - willing to explore my personal fantasies of sex with both women and men?? He is keen - but i can never find a woman whom is completelty interested in sex :( well i better keep looking…